I read a lot of blogs. One of my favorites is by the Yarn Harlot. It's quirky, a bit snarky, and full of fiber fun.
On certain days she says just what I need to hear. I think I'll chalk this up to her being a Mom to several daughters around my age. Mom's tend to have those magic words that can bestow love and warmth or, as in this case, a metaphorical smack on the back of the head with a 'snap out of it!'
"The truth is, that if you're brand new to a skill, you probably suck. You'll likely suck less tomorrow. Don't throw in the towel because your first (or tenth) try at something isn't successful. Sure.. you suck. You're new. Keep trying and you'll suck less. Later. It doesn't mean you're bad at color work. It means you don't know how.
Yet." ~ The Yarn Harlot
If you remember back to the beginning of January, one of my New Year's resolutions was to knit my way through the 2011 Vogue Stitch-a-Day Calendar.
I was making progress too. I learned how to do stranded color work on day 1 and was thoroughly encouraged that both my sister and my knitting group didn't think my swatches were hideous! My tension was good, and even without blocking things were looking up.
And then... Intarsia.
I had heard the horror stories. I've seen the support groups. I waited a week...and then another. I contemplated skipping it all together. Who would blame me? Intarsia really should be learned in a class with a teacher to gently pull you back from the brink of tears anyway.
And then I read the Yarn Harlot's blog and decided that if the point of my calendar knitting was to learn new techniques I wouldn't let the fear of sucking stop me. I waited until Saturday morning so I would have a full day to devote to this swatch, grit my teeth, and arranged my yarn.
7:00 AM - Feeling cautiously optimistic.
8:00 AM - Realized that I switched the light blue and the dark blue. Then I took one look at the back of my swatch and also realized that I didn't care. I do try to be a perfectionist, but there was no way I was frogging this and starting over.
10:00 AM - The first flower was done. The back is a rat's nest, but my stockinette was lovely. I think I've developed a new appreciation for it. Never again will I lament large portions of flat knitting. At least until the next project.
12:00 PM - Both flowers were done! And the back of the work was... terrifying.
Now, when my Mom was first teaching me to knit, she told me "NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER TIE KNOTS IN YARN!!" Ok, she may not have yelled it, but it was taught to me as a hard and fast rule. When using yarn, there would be no knots. Ever.
However, my Mother (while a lovely knitter) never attempted intarsia. She was never presented with the above tangle of awfulness and forced to make a decision about what to do with all those loose ends.
The front of the work was full of holes, but all the video tutorials I watched assured me they would disappear when I 'took care of' the back.
I made the decision to tie the darn knots.
I think the finished swatch is ugly. The color switch hurts my eyes and I can't imagine using this for anything that would require a pleasant aesthetic. In short - it sucks. But I'm pleased that I tried it.
And now I can move guilt free to the January 6th swatch that involves no color work, just a very comfortable knit and purl.